My life this year - 2 Muharram (Evaluation Mode)

Assalammualaikum readers,

As I sat on the bed, this moment, this morning, thinking that I have missed my daily workout - akibat tidur lepas subuh. Ok dah satu negatif. 

Masih berpikir lagi laaa nie, what have I done this year? Evaluate my life in flashes of light. Banyak dah jadi. My life totally have been a roller coaster.

List of what happened :

Apa itu diabetis?

 In the name of Allah, most gracious, most merciful -

“In the darkness of the night close to the dawning light, I wake up and pray for another better day. Lead us to Jannah. Save us from Al-Haawiyah. Ya Allah, we adore you. Ya Allah, we implore you”

Assalammualaikum my readers,

Ya, kebelakangan ini Mami dok penuhkan timeline hampa dengan diabetes. Kenapa? Sepanjang hari minggu Mami dok jumpa orang yang ada kencing manis, dari umur 13 tahun sampailah umur 67 tahun.  Jadi Mami tertarik nak tau dengan terperinci pasal kencing manih nie.

1. Apa itu Diabetis? 

Soalan yang biasa diajukan. Yang kita paham hanyalah kencing manih. Dok habaq kat jiran tetangga pasai salah satu penyakit 3 serangkai nie. Tapi paham ke tidak? Mungkin yang cakap hanya tau term kencing manih tapi takdak lah paham sangat macam mana boleh kena dengan kencing manih. 

Tok Ayahku Part 2 - Sakit mula datang

- In the name of Allah, most gracious, most merciful -

“In the darkness of the night close to the dawning light, I wake up and pray for another better day. Lead us to Jannah. Save us from Al-Haawiyah. Ya Allah, we adore you. Ya Allah, we implore you”

Assalammualaikum readers,

This morning was quite heartbreaking morning for me. As I woke up for subuh, I  rushed myself to take my bath and get ready for another journey with tok ayah.

This time for his health. Not quite a happy story, I'm telling you.

As early as 7.30am, we were already at Klinik Kesihatan. Ya Allah, dah ramai! 

Hmmmm what should I do? As tok ayah was not registered under klinik kesihatan kepala batas. 

I put his green card under non-appointment area. Fidgeting. Knowing that I have to wait for this long hours just to get check up. Tok Ayah has not yet has his breakfast. Puasa pagi (Sebab ingat kena amek darah).Me too. But don't mind me.

Tak boleh jadi nie. Ramai sangat orang. Tengok tok ayah, ya Allah kesian. Mami memberanikan diri. Tak kisah lah apa nak jadi, jadi lah. Mami terus bangun, pi kat kaunter kata 

"Tok saya sakit dada. Sesak nafas. Saya risau jantung dia!" Punya kuat Mami cakap sampai nurse kat kaunter terkejut.

"Adik bawa masuk ke kecemasan". Dengan keadaan tercengang-cengang dia reply.

Alhamdulillah! Mami dah tau kalau masuk ke kecemasan mesti depa akan bagi tip top attention. 

Cuma....

Yang tak tip top nya tok ayah lah. 

Tok ayah ku

- In the name of Allah, most gracious, most merciful -

“In the darkness of the night close to the dawning light, I wake up and pray for another better day. Lead us to Jannah. Save us from Al-Haawiyah. Ya Allah, we adore you. Ya Allah, we implore you”

Assalammualaikum readers,

Mami baru balik dari jumpa tok ayah. Dapat call kata dia sakit. Hakim bagitau tok ayah macam nak pitam masa pi market. 

Mami pi. Sayu sangat aih. Tengok Tok Ayah yang dah berusia 81 tahun. Kurus, cengkung, kulit boleh nampak tulang.

Perjuangan closing!

- In the name of Allah, most gracious, most merciful -

“In the darkness of the night close to the dawning light, I wake up and pray for another better day. Lead us to Jannah. Save us from Al-Haawiyah. Ya Allah, we adore you. Ya Allah, we implore you”

Assalammualaikum readers,

Mami tak dapat nak update apa-apa sebab dok kalut buat closing. Bulan ini agak berpeluh ketiak mencapai target sebab Mami memang nak naik rank. Mami nak pi Italy, inshaallah. 

Depa kata depa akan bagi sesiapa nak pi Italy asalkan setiap bulan naik rank. Itu bukan janji, itu pasti!

Sebenarnya pada tengah bulan, Mami dah mula rasa payah. Payah nak dapat sales. Baru aku tau orang kerja sales macam mana. Sekarang nie Mami kagum dengan salesman/salesgirl yang datang mai kat tempat-tempat makan jual barang. 

Sejak Mami mula berbisnes, Mami mula pandang tinggi pada mereka yang mempunyai hati kental. Mereka tidak malu untuk mendekati orang, apatah lagi memulakan perbualan untuk menceritakan apa yang mereka jual. 

Minggu lepas Mami berada di Ipoh. Sambil tengah makan dekat restoran roti canai, ada seorang gadis mula masuk. 

Muka dia lesu. Mungkin dah penat berjalan. Dia bawa produk, yang Mami rasa macam cd/dvd islamiah. Dia mula approach meja kami dan memulakan perbualan.

Suara dia agak perlahan, rasanya dia mula rasa takkan ada orang nak beli dari dia. Mami pandang dan renung cara dia berkomunikasi. 

And you know what?

I was looking at myself. This is me when I give up. Nobody will listen to you. In fact nobody will notice your presence. I failed. I failed when I'm not trying. I failed the moment I give up. I failed the moment I saw the target I should make. I failed the moment I think it is hard. I failed because I didn't try at all!!